Try your level best to make some space in your Your heart for the Quran. There are locks upon the heart sins that prevent the heart from benefiting it.
The Quran is primarily intended to affect the human heart and that is why Allah subhanahu wa’ta’ala chose the heart of a human being as the landing platform of the Quran, not a mountain, not soil ,not a building, a heart of a human being.
But if the heart is not ready to receive it, the fruits of eman can’t grow grow, you recite and the Quran pushes you further and further away from Allah. Identifying locks which prevent from benefiting of the quran; open them up using the key of istighfar- astaghfirullah, astaghfirullah, astaghfirullah